What do I have to look foward to?

Just got back from a break in LA, with every trip it had it's good and not so fantastic points. Every time I go to the states, I feel in bedded into American society. It feels more like home, but it is equally nice to return to my life in the UK. However, this time I actually dredded coming back. I quess because, the reality of my situation, which is, in May I would have been an unemployed qualified Speech and Language Therapist for a year. With this in mind, keeping hopeful becomes increasingly difficult. God I really don't believe me going through all those years in Uni was a mistake, so what's the deal. I have always held unto the hope that you give me but I can't help feeling really depressed, down and a failure. Most of my peers who don't even have a relationship with you, are prospering in this field. And me well I feel like I am in graveyard of has been/I wish I could be. Lord, was going down this path a mistake? Am I flogging a dead horse, Please give some hope, some direction, something to hold unto. I feel defeated