Disappointed

Sometimes when I view my blogg I get disappointed c'os it looks like I am the only one that views it. There again it is meant to be my diary of events, so does it really matter????

I quess sometimes it is really difficult, specially when your feeling down and you just want a few words of encouragement from someone else. The sermon at church on Sunday was great, it was about our breakthrough's, how we trust God, prepare, expect and recieve breakthrough's.

This week I made a very important phone call, that will potential enable me to start my new jobs. I was in the middle of something when the phone call I was waiting for came. I told the person that I would call them back, but they advise me that they will send a letter. Does that mean, a no, disaster, or an opportunity to trust God and to believe His miracle working hand to move greatly in my situation. The later is probably the true option, how ever for once split second my heart sank, and I doubted God. Please fordive me diary. However i know how close i have bee, yet??????

Still waiting for that letter then I know I will start work soon.

At the tips of my fingers

Have you ever prayed for something and it is at the tips of your fingers but there is something blocking you from reaching out and grabbing hold of it. That's my dilemma!!!!! I know God has told me that he has taken care of everything but the waiting is the hardess part of that promise. It's like knowning the outcome will be in your favour, but not knowning when you will receive the manifestation of that outcome.

Anyway good news I got a job, all the pieces are in place aside from this one piece. Father I know you have not open this door for it to be closed in my face!!!!!!

When I look back I realised that God heard my cry

It has been a while since I have visited my blogg. Probably becuase my diary was begining to read like the diary of a moaning therapist. However, when I look back to where I was when I wrote my last blogg and down, I realise that God trully heard my cry and harkened to my every prayer. Things have now moved on since then.

I have a testimony but I am not at liberty to say much at present. But I really have a testimony that will encourage everyone.

What do I have to look foward to?

Just got back from a break in LA, with every trip it had it's good and not so fantastic points. Every time I go to the states, I feel in bedded into American society. It feels more like home, but it is equally nice to return to my life in the UK. However, this time I actually dredded coming back. I quess because, the reality of my situation, which is, in May I would have been an unemployed qualified Speech and Language Therapist for a year. With this in mind, keeping hopeful becomes increasingly difficult. God I really don't believe me going through all those years in Uni was a mistake, so what's the deal. I have always held unto the hope that you give me but I can't help feeling really depressed, down and a failure. Most of my peers who don't even have a relationship with you, are prospering in this field. And me well I feel like I am in graveyard of has been/I wish I could be. Lord, was going down this path a mistake? Am I flogging a dead horse, Please give some hope, some direction, something to hold unto. I feel defeated

The Wind of Change has arrived

It is amazing when you get words of revelation from God, and act upon, what can happen. After the incident at work last week, I started praying in a VERY different way. Even when I was praying in my heavenly language I could sense that God was directing my prayers to the approppriate issues. And today at work, I felt a 'Wind of Change' in the office. One of my prayer points over the weekend was that those with integrity will begin to speak out. Amazingly today with my own ears I heard a member of staff says she is tired of keeping quiet and is going to speak out. At what? I don't know but that is confirmaton to me that God has heard my cry. God is truly the same today, yesterday and forever more. The same way he moved in the days of Noah, Moses and Daniel is the same way He will move in our generation. We really need to hold on to Proverbs 3:5 -7 which says: 'Trust in the Lord with your heart and lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path. God knows the begining and the end of our situations; What is even more amazing is how quickly God moves when we pray, sometimes it does not always appear as if He is working on our situation but God is. Gosh! this has been a big revelation to me and has sealed all the words of encouragement that have been spoken to me specifically not to GIVE UP!

Some people have issues

Today at work was an eye opener. My current job involves dealing with people from different backgrounds, and the office policy is that everyone who comes through our doors should be treated the same irrespective of race, background e.t.c. However there is someone in the office who does not understand this fundamental concept. From now on she shall be know as the 'Bride of Dracula' as she is as white as a sheet and wears black clothing all the time. She is what you call a vigilante..........and her BEEF is? People of colour, particualrly NIGERIAN'S and GHANANIAN's. It seems it has been going on for a while but today it backfired as those with integrity are not happy and are speaking out. I know some of our brothers and sisters are 419ners but what happen to innocent until proven guilty. What I cannot understand is how they allow people with small to mi-nute brains to deal with normal members of the public. Guess she has been allowed to get away with it, because the cowards in the office tend to keep quiet. Anyway, I have finally discovered why God placed me there..............to pray for change. This weekend I am going to do my dangerous prayers, God help her

Things are looking up!

Things at work seem to be getting better and I am begining to see the bigger picture. Ok I think I better back track, just to put you all in the picture. Before I went to uni to train as a Speech and Language Therapist (SLT) I use to work for the government. Well at the moment till I find a SLT job I intend to continue working for my current employer. Unless that is, the big man upstairs tells me otherwise, after all it is better than being unemployed. The place I'm working, cannot gve the name or place as I cannot afford a lawyer. Anyway just move jobs recently, when I went to view the job, they took me to the section where everyone is friendly, happy. However I am begining to smell a rat, c'os once I put my name on the dotted lines, they placed me in the section that resembles the funny farm. Most of the people there are old, in fact someone mentioned only today not my words that none of the girls there are pretty. Personally I think beauty is in the eye of the beholder. But I have to admit there is one person there that really needs to put some relaxer in her hair as the natural look is not working but I guess everyone to themselves, don't mean that in a terrible way.

On my first day, only one person talked to me, it was terrible. The following day fortunately for me I was spared the funny farm as my tempo boss had to leave early the previous day due to a domestic. Today I figured he would not turn up, thank God he did not, so I went to the part of the office where people actually live rather than exist. I am begining to feel part of the office now. Also I am still applying for a job I have been drooling over, I realised what God really wants me to do,in fact it never siezes to amaze me how God sends different people to encourage you. From blogg mates to really good friends. Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement. Gosh! is that the time..................

Not the News I hoped for

Just got the news I was dredding. Thank you for attending the interview...........we are sorry............... Yesterday was a bit hard, tried to take it on the chin but I was really disappointed. Started to think I was a failure till I read my word for today, and then I started evaluating what's been going wrong. A bit more preparation, a command of confidence at the interview and belief in myself, plus the use of appropriate SLT words/terminologies used appropriately during the course of the interview might just bag me the right job.

Well that's what I am placing my hope on, if I don't then I might as well give up. And I have been advised by a reliable source.......the main Man who sits on the throne in heavenly places that he has started a plan and pupose for my life and He is faithful to complete it. So the job search continues.

A life line

Just got a notification this week for a job interview, Praise Jesus...........This time I am going in prepared........ With the armour of God and alot of preparation.

More Advice

Got an e-mail from a friend who is travelling around Australia and New Zealand for the next three months. She said I should not let go until God answers my plea and delivers the goods. I am begining to get the picture now, it consists of three words: God, Trust and Miracles. I can live with that. Anyway I just finished another application form, sadly this one has nothing to do with Speech Therapy, but more to do with me fufilling my passion for travelling. Cannot go into too much details yet, besides it's nearlly one in the morning, I am tired and I've got work tomorrow.

Don't Give UP!

Spoke to a few more mates from uni this afternoon. They told me to keep going, and not to give up. To be honest I never REALLY! intended to, but it's really nice to have people who believe in you especially when you begin to doubt yourself. Come on, let's be real, there is only so much self motivation you can give yourself. In fact the reality of this profession is, it's like speaking a language. If you don't practise, certain aspects of your knowledge and skills becomes rusty. Oh! and there is also the small but vital factor, of ones confidence level's. I must admit I've been thinking of doing some voluntary work for a while now, but have been holding out in the hope I'll would get a job offer. This might probably be the best time to explore this option, as it is most likely to give me some sense of belonging.

Words of Encouragement

Opened UCB's 'Word for Today" Oh! in case you had not guessed I am a Christian. Today's entry talked about resisting temptation. At this present time, I have to resist my biggest temptation, which is to give up my dream of becoming a working Speech and Language Therapist, as this job search is taking it's toll on me. It is one thing applying and going for interviews but it is another thing getting your first break into your choosen field. I guess I have to be patient and trust God totally in this situation. Afterall they do say that good things come to those who wait.

I spoke to a friend of mine earlier on today, she said the right job will come my way soon. I really believe that but I guess patience is not a natural characteristic of us human beings.

A job with a pupose

Today has been a week since I had an interview, met a colleague from uni, it was great seeing a familar face. I hear they need 6 Therapists, so I guess I have a one in 6 chances of getting the job or do I?
It is one thing completting your degree but securing a job is a whole new ball game.

I just want to start a job and a career with a pupose