Disappointed

Sometimes when I view my blogg I get disappointed c'os it looks like I am the only one that views it. There again it is meant to be my diary of events, so does it really matter????

I quess sometimes it is really difficult, specially when your feeling down and you just want a few words of encouragement from someone else. The sermon at church on Sunday was great, it was about our breakthrough's, how we trust God, prepare, expect and recieve breakthrough's.

This week I made a very important phone call, that will potential enable me to start my new jobs. I was in the middle of something when the phone call I was waiting for came. I told the person that I would call them back, but they advise me that they will send a letter. Does that mean, a no, disaster, or an opportunity to trust God and to believe His miracle working hand to move greatly in my situation. The later is probably the true option, how ever for once split second my heart sank, and I doubted God. Please fordive me diary. However i know how close i have bee, yet??????

Still waiting for that letter then I know I will start work soon.

At the tips of my fingers

Have you ever prayed for something and it is at the tips of your fingers but there is something blocking you from reaching out and grabbing hold of it. That's my dilemma!!!!! I know God has told me that he has taken care of everything but the waiting is the hardess part of that promise. It's like knowning the outcome will be in your favour, but not knowning when you will receive the manifestation of that outcome.

Anyway good news I got a job, all the pieces are in place aside from this one piece. Father I know you have not open this door for it to be closed in my face!!!!!!

When I look back I realised that God heard my cry

It has been a while since I have visited my blogg. Probably becuase my diary was begining to read like the diary of a moaning therapist. However, when I look back to where I was when I wrote my last blogg and down, I realise that God trully heard my cry and harkened to my every prayer. Things have now moved on since then.

I have a testimony but I am not at liberty to say much at present. But I really have a testimony that will encourage everyone.

What do I have to look foward to?

Just got back from a break in LA, with every trip it had it's good and not so fantastic points. Every time I go to the states, I feel in bedded into American society. It feels more like home, but it is equally nice to return to my life in the UK. However, this time I actually dredded coming back. I quess because, the reality of my situation, which is, in May I would have been an unemployed qualified Speech and Language Therapist for a year. With this in mind, keeping hopeful becomes increasingly difficult. God I really don't believe me going through all those years in Uni was a mistake, so what's the deal. I have always held unto the hope that you give me but I can't help feeling really depressed, down and a failure. Most of my peers who don't even have a relationship with you, are prospering in this field. And me well I feel like I am in graveyard of has been/I wish I could be. Lord, was going down this path a mistake? Am I flogging a dead horse, Please give some hope, some direction, something to hold unto. I feel defeated

The Wind of Change has arrived

It is amazing when you get words of revelation from God, and act upon, what can happen. After the incident at work last week, I started praying in a VERY different way. Even when I was praying in my heavenly language I could sense that God was directing my prayers to the approppriate issues. And today at work, I felt a 'Wind of Change' in the office. One of my prayer points over the weekend was that those with integrity will begin to speak out. Amazingly today with my own ears I heard a member of staff says she is tired of keeping quiet and is going to speak out. At what? I don't know but that is confirmaton to me that God has heard my cry. God is truly the same today, yesterday and forever more. The same way he moved in the days of Noah, Moses and Daniel is the same way He will move in our generation. We really need to hold on to Proverbs 3:5 -7 which says: 'Trust in the Lord with your heart and lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path. God knows the begining and the end of our situations; What is even more amazing is how quickly God moves when we pray, sometimes it does not always appear as if He is working on our situation but God is. Gosh! this has been a big revelation to me and has sealed all the words of encouragement that have been spoken to me specifically not to GIVE UP!

Some people have issues

Today at work was an eye opener. My current job involves dealing with people from different backgrounds, and the office policy is that everyone who comes through our doors should be treated the same irrespective of race, background e.t.c. However there is someone in the office who does not understand this fundamental concept. From now on she shall be know as the 'Bride of Dracula' as she is as white as a sheet and wears black clothing all the time. She is what you call a vigilante..........and her BEEF is? People of colour, particualrly NIGERIAN'S and GHANANIAN's. It seems it has been going on for a while but today it backfired as those with integrity are not happy and are speaking out. I know some of our brothers and sisters are 419ners but what happen to innocent until proven guilty. What I cannot understand is how they allow people with small to mi-nute brains to deal with normal members of the public. Guess she has been allowed to get away with it, because the cowards in the office tend to keep quiet. Anyway, I have finally discovered why God placed me there..............to pray for change. This weekend I am going to do my dangerous prayers, God help her